Grieving

Where did you go?

You just disappeared one day

I didn’t say the right thing

I wasn’t nice

I wasn’t kind

I should’ve been better to you

I should’ve understood you at a deeper level 

Why am I just now noticing the beauty in you after you're gone?

Can you please forgive me?

Oh wait…

You’re not here

You can’t hear

You’re not near

I can’t touch you

I can’t 

What is life without you

Why does it just move on like nothing has happened at all

Can you come back please?

Give me one more try

You were too young

We were all too young

Why?

Why?

Why… not me?

I prayed to God for the first time with actual vigor in my heart 

“I will go to church every Sunday, I will believe in you, I’ll pray everyday if you just bring him back. I promise.”

That’s when I found out that there was no one out there 

And that if there was, how could the all powerful not revive my love

Tragedy

Death

Tangled up in a mess of tears and disrespect 

Fundamentally broken until you can’t feel anymore

Why do you do this to me?

Why am I here?

What is the point?

Tell me the reason

I shouldn’t have said bye

I should’ve said see you later

I SHOULD HAVE SAID SEE YOU LATER

It was my fault

And my fault alone

Please forgive me my dearest friend 

I want to live for you now but I can’t seem to catch my breath here on earth

How is it in heaven?

I hope as beautiful as you

With all the heart and soul you poured into everyone else I know your next life will be filled with nothing but fruitful days and blissful nights

Don’t cry

I’m coming

We’ll all be there soon

I guess you didn’t need much time to accomplish your mission

I knew you were special 

I wish I told you you were special…

When you were here

But now you can’t hear 

And you’re nowhere near

I really hope you’re happy my dear